Change of mind.

Im sez and i'm 16.
Over the past three years i've been struggling with depression on and off, there were times where i was so down i could have killed myself and others where i felt top of the world.
I have met some of the most amazing people in the course of my life especially over the past three years... They've been there for me, helped me, i've shared with them and trusted them.
But the two most amazing have been David (34) and Natasha(24). These two people mean the world to me, i'd lay down my life for them. But i don't think they even realise that , which upsets me...anyway.
On monday one of the most amazing things happened... I was at touch football with Tash and i was talking to her about how over the past weeks ive been falling back downhill, and she told me that the devil attacks your mind, making you depressed etc, and that i need to stop talking it over my life... She left, then i went home. I went straight to my room and prayed to God about it and broke it from my life.
This week so many things have happened that usually make me so depressed, but each time something crap happens, i find a sollution and move on. i've been happy, and people have been telling me how happy and vibrant i look.
its been so amazing and so different. i love it
there's no way that i ever want to go back to what i was.
I've realised so much that God is everything, he changes your life so dramatically.

and Natasha is one of the most awesome people ever. for constantly helping me to realise how to get better... now i realise that before, i didnt want to be better... i liked the security. i was scared, coz i really didnt know who i'd be without my depression because it had been such a large part of my life for so long.

Depression is crap
and Jesus is everything.